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As a pre-T transgender myself, I feel many of these things. I've been struggling to figure out a piece of art that shows how painful it is to just "be" everyday. People will say things like, "who cares what others think" or "Just deal with it. It's the way you were made".

You could never understand unless you were born like we were...
In the wrong body.

Art me

No stealies.
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InhumanCreator Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2015  Student General Artist
I know this far too well... i'm a girl trapped inside a boys body and I told my parents twice but they shook it off as a phase the first time and the second they said it was my autism they said it in a way like "you're a boy not a girl, deal with it" I HATE my parents for that, they dont get me at all even though they keep saying they do
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2015  Student General Artist
If only they would listen. :/
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InhumanCreator Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Student General Artist
yeah but unfortunatly they will never listen
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Student General Artist
Maybe so, but you won't be around your parents forever. You'll find a way to be you. There will always be others that'll accept you. 
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InhumanCreator Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Student General Artist
d'aww thanks Blush  that really cheared me up
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Student General Artist
I'm glad it did, darlin'. c: <3 
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boutifly Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Ahhh... I feel you! >A<
Like, I know I'm a girl, but I rather feel like a guy. Y'know...
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2015  Student General Artist
Haha, that's not quite the same thing. Or at least the way you phrased it. 

I was born in a female body, but I wouldn't say "I know I'm a girl, buuut..." It'd be more akin to "I am a man that was born in the body of a woman." It's more sure and absolute. I don't associate myself at all with "being female," because aside from the body, I'm not. 

There's a large difference. If you "feel like a guy," you may just be a tomboy, or also transgender if the feeling grows into something more sure. c: 
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EmmaSpeak Featured By Owner Edited Mar 7, 2015  Professional Writer
I've always found reading people speak about their solid emotions of being in the wrong body to be enlightening. I've never quite been sure about my gender in the same way that I've never quite been sure about my emotions, I don't really have them often, and when I do I need to destroy them immediately or else they turn into bad things like dysphoria, panic attacks, an overwhelming desire to kill and or eat whoever/whatever is in front of me, or simply an overwhelming sense of sadness/depression that doesn't leave for weeks. Emotions suck. 

Epic art, though!
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boutifly Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, I'm still trying to discover that till the end. ^^
But I get what you're saying.

P.S. Love yer art ;u;
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2015  Student General Artist
D'aww, thank you so much ya lil' sweetie butt! <333
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boutifly Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
No prob wiggle king~ >3<
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Paradox-pony Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Ahh uvu this is a wonderful picture.... i myself am not quite trans... im bi gendered..sometimes i feel like a boy, other times a girl, sometimes both... 

I respect you for making this though... it really captures how hard it must be to go threw that kinda stuff

hope things get better for you... 
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015  Student General Artist
I think they will! This picture is quite emotional, but I'm an optimist at heart haha. 

Thank you so much for the kind wishes. <3
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Paradox-pony Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem c: 
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WHYDOINEEDANAME123 Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Im gender fluid myself, not planning on surgery or anything, so I wouldn't say that I can relate as much as your average TG, but this still gets me emotional to the point of tears idk why
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Sephirothfenrir Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014
Doubtful it is the same thing, but I can atleast say I partially understand this. I am physically a male though I like being female (granted without the physical traits) at times and other times just being male. Both feel like me but when I feel like one, the other does not feel like me if that makes sense. I considered it a neutrality of sorts. Two sides of my psyche, the female and the male wanting to be "out and about". It feels like I am both in a sense and I have trouble figuring out what to do about that.
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Student General Artist
It's not the same thing, but it is a part of the gender spectrum. 

Does the term "Gender fluid" fit better? You drift between the two, and I know a person in real life that does the same thing. They simply go with the flow and how they feel that day. They even have two separate names to go by, one male and one female. My advice to you is simply be yourself. c: If you feel that you are male one day, then you are male. If you feel female the next, then you're female. You dress however you desire and be comfortable~
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Sephirothfenrir Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014
Apparently it is something called an Androgyne? It is not that I am 'fluid' and one day I might want to be one and the other I want to be the other, but more I feel like both at all times and express that, just sometimes a bit more then other times. Sorry if I did not explain it well, I am bad at expressiion. Also thank you for the response!
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Delirium1138 Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is great and describes how I feel so well.
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Student General Artist
I'm glad you can relate. :') You'll pull through though! No doubt about it! <3
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Delirium1138 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you :)
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kabit Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014
I'm there with you.

HRT since Dec '13... It gets so much better!
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Student General Artist
I'm so happy to hear that! I'm very excited. x) 
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LoveTheFrostIron Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm pre-T and pre-Op FtM.
Thank you for this.
It is a perfect representation of how it feels to be trans.
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2014  Student General Artist
No problem. I'm glad people can empathize. :')
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LoveTheFrostIron Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Yes! uvu.
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ChoasMellophone Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I cant favorite this enough. All i can say is this is very well dont and i love the fact that you did both. Thank you.
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014  Student General Artist
A lot of emotion went into this. :') I figured I'd share with the world how we feel at times. 
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ChoasMellophone Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I can see that. I really love it and you did suck a great job.
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Nate64567 Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for doing both and you really nailed the Gender Dysphoria that we feel being emulated in this artwork
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014  Student General Artist
Yeah, I couldn't just do ftm or mtf. We all have these emotions. I had to do both~ 

I'm glad the emotions get across. :') 
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VibrantMuse Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Aha, well, whaddya know-- finding a trans group while derping around looking for Apoc Art. I know these feelings all too well-- and when I bring it up to my parents, they just laugh and say I'm young and confused. They've come to accept my pansexuality ( they don't understand it, but they accept it ), but they think that the thought of me wanting so desperately to be a boy as silly. 

I just throw on my plaid shirts and beanies these days and laugh it off. Still, there are days where the image in the mirror mocks me, just like this. vuv; Heh.
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2013  Student General Artist
O.O WELL HELLO MY FELLOW TRANS BRO! <3 

Yeahhh, it doesn't hurt as much as it used to. :') After I finally took my dad's advice and stopped letting it eat at me, I've become a lot happier. Still, I'll have my bad days at times. Man oh man, I had no idea. This is just... Really cool. ;w; I get lonely sometimes with these feels because I don't know a whole lot of other transgenders, so it'd be cool if we could talk~ 

And about your parents... That really stinks. Maybe I can direct you to some youtube videos that may help them understand? Someone I subscribed to had his mom come into a video and talk about it! 


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VibrantMuse Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
* EPIC TRANS BRO FIST. * >w< <3

Aha, it was REALLY bad in High School, but since moving out of the 'rents house and going to college, things have gotten easier. Especially since I get to make my own decisions about body image now. Cutting my hair short was ENLIGHTENING, let me tell you. XD <3

I love unexpected surprises like this. owo It does get awfully lonely at times, doesn't it? I'd be more than happy to spent time chit chatting with you-- I kind of have no life away from school and work, so it kind of works out for me. XD I'm online mostly at night, so you'll likely catch me online during the late hours. 

I'll favorite those. -w- Thanks a bunch, dude. 


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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2013  Student General Artist
Dude, believe it or not, when I got my haircut that's when I just like... KNEW. xD I was like, "... I look like a dude. No, I AM A DUDE AW YEAH SON!" It really was enlightening! And it didn't exactly happen like that but uh, whatever. lmao 

Yeah, it does. I'm glad that you're willing to chat! Now we can bond over this and our sexy apocs. >D Are you considering taking testosterone? Or have you started already? 

No probs broski!
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VibrantMuse Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Pffft. YES, exactly! XD

Aha, transgender discussions AND attractive Apocs? Does it get much better? owo 
I'd LOVE to start testosterone therapy, but as it is, I'm a broke-as-fuck college student. Ain't nobody got money for that.
//SHOT for horrid misuse of a meme.

What about you? Are you considering? 
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Student General Artist
xD Aw, it wasn't that horribly misused. *cough orwasit *cough wheeze*

OH HECK YEAH xD I'm going to get on it as soon as I can. It's kinda annoying when you don't mature in the same way your fellow bros do. I'd like to fix that pronto, maybe even make a joke out of it when I'm older somehow >w>
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VibrantMuse Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Yeah it was. //HONEST. XD <3

Awesome. >w< Actually, I've been blessed with broad shoulders and a strong jawline naturally, which helps in masking my physical ' gender '. I feel like, when I undergo hormone therapy, it'll be a smooth transition. owo
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Student General Artist
That's awesome as hell! ewe I wish I had a strong jawline too! I've got good shoulders, but my face is pretty androgynous. I confuse the fuck out of people all the time. xD IT'S FUN AND ALL BUT UH... I'm a bro yesh. >w> 

Do you use a binder or anything? I had one once. I literally put it on like... Three times and that's it because it constricted my breathing so bad. I made one of my old trans friends happy though! Gave it to him and he flipped shit. xD
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Wolgron Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013
Man I feel like this all the time. My parents have always said "you should of been the boy and your brother should of been the girl." ;_;
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Student General Artist
They aren't mean about it, are they? :c
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Wolgron Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013
I don't think they they think that I'm a transgender. They're oblivious
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Student General Artist
Have you ever mentioned the term to them?
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Wolgron Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013
Nope.
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Student General Artist
Ah. Well, I suppose you can't expect them to play the guessing game. If you want them to know, you should talk to them about it, but if you're concerned about whether they'll accept you or not.... It's alright. We're all scared, and not everyone even mentions it to their parents. 
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Yanderefan Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
I am not trandere I just feel sorry for them  and I love this  pci
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you very much. :) It can be hard sometimes, but in the end we become stronger as people. 
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Yanderefan Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
    I wanna  be cocnile  for  trangdere youth when I grow up      I love being  girl   I just  srupeted like isaid  thanks
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TheWiggleKing Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
That's very sweet of you. :D I know there'd be a lot of people wanting your help. Being transgender can be scary if you have no one to talk to about it. 
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